Island

Yes, I did attend another wedding party. Or frankly, I attended two wedding parties in a row in the days of my weekend.

The first, which was held on Saturday, was nothing special. It actually was a gold anniversary party, and I barely enjoyed the songs - of course, the band played Pop's appetite. And they even hired a lady rocker, which was actually in the same age of my late Granny. So seventies.

But the one which was held in Sunday, was an unbeatable beauty.

It was held on a golf field, but I prefer to refer it as 'island'. In fact, it looks like one; with a superbly large lake, that may look like a sea, plus crystal sands make it appear like a beautiful shore. Below the light of the moon, the island was a perfect place for a date, a candle-light dinner, or a wedding, of course.

Opposite the lake was another island - which was actually the same island, but the access to cross the lake was FAR on the east. Peer from the edge of the island, and you got to see the palm trees, and also beautiful fountains on the surface of the dark water of the lake.

The view was astonishing.

It may the simple definition of paradise. I barely mind the bride - who was actually my former course teacher - swayed by the beauty of the island. Then I tried to list the following:

6 ADVANTAGES OF LIVING ON A PERSONAL ISLAND

01. Since it is under your personal ownership, you may shout around with no worry of a wise old man that will reprove your acts.

02. Dig a little hole, put a flag, grab a stick, and you get a free golf.

03. Limitless stock of water from the sea.

04. And of course, free swimming pool.

05. Or grab a ball, plug two sticks, and you'll be able to play soccer - essentially, you can do anything you want.

06. When soccer or golf become dull, you can build sandcastles anytime.

6 DISADVANTAGES OF LIVING ON A PERSONAL ISLAND

01. With no companion, loneliness will definitely haunt you.

02. It may be creepy to be alone on the island in the night.

03. There's no use of living on a personal island, if you still have your homeworks.

04. By the way, sea water may be limitless, but then it is saltwater. And no one WANTS to drink saltwater.

05. (Related to point 01.) You may be able to play soccer, but will you play with no foe?

06. You may fell like you're a castaway.

Indeed, I am now dreaming of buying a personal island, build a super-cozy house on it, and live peacefully. But then dream is dream - unless I'm destined to be a zillionaire in the future.

Or I'll stay on the golf field.

Wedding

There were too many familiar faces.

Brevity, I attended a wedding reception of my Mum's friend's son. I used to know him and his family, but then I was 4 when I knew them, and it has been 9 years ago, so I may have forgotten their faces. Problem is they REMEMBER me very well, and thus I have to ask my Mum where they are; not which one, just to cover my stupidity, so at the very least I don't have to ask 'Sorry, who are you?' when they greet me.

Now forget the awkwardness. You can't tell when I don't act awkwardly; nearly NEVER. Attending a wedding party gives me an idea of life. It just suddenly popped out inside my mind, "Will this ever happen to me?".

I hate to admit that everything looked tremendously beautiful. The room itself was beautiful, and everyone's happy. Kids running happily here to there, and some teenagers were happy in other way; tasting any kinds of fancy food. The band sang love songs, and they were happy. Apart from my lack of concerns, the same question always wanders in around my head.

Still a kid, I am. But I frequently think of my future. Will I finish my study well? Where will I attend my college? Will I be what I want to be? Will I finish my book and be an author? Or will I ever get a keyboard and be a musician? Then, will I find a pretty girl I land my heart on, date her, propose her, and marry her? What will I do in my final years, and will somebody accompany me until the end of my life? This questions are actually unanswerable; again, I'm still a kid. It will be a long years of waiting to see the answer.

But sometimes, I realize myself as a part of the infamous Queen song:

"I'm just a poor boy, nobody loves me!"

Sometimes, I wish to get back to the beginning of everything, to get everything fixed and then go with my right life. But now, I wish I can skip everything and just GET THERE. Just to see what great plan He has prepared for me.

But sometimes I'm afraid, the questions are just questions, what if the answer of all of them is simply 'Never'? Actually, deep down in myself I don't really wish this to happen, too. You all know how my mindset works. When I get BACK to reality, it is simply like a daydream. But a sobering daydream...that sometimes I wish to come true. It's just a matter of time. Everything depends on the time. 

Jokingly, what keeps me wish the wedding to happen to me? The cake.

Toys

Good Rainy Mornin'.

Have I told you how much I love rainy mornings?

The mornings get mourning,
This holiday gets boring,
Everything gets appalling,
..This poem doesn't rhyme.


And yesterday, I revisited one decent oldies game, that you surely knows:

Toy Story 2 for the late PlayStation One system. We get to be the 'ol Space Ranger, in the rescue of his Howdy buddy. Now, what's more fun than playing around the city, and we're smaller than anything? Second to none.

We get to meet other toys, one of them whose task is to take the tokens we laboriously collect, for a token. Taken for a token.

Or even take us to a fight against a bunch of SLIME that magically manages to stretch out of a garbage can with the lid on the top of its head WITHOUT the possibility of the lid fell down to close the slime inside the can.

Sometimes fantasy is out of logic. Or what. But they had a bunch of fun, that ironically needs no logic to be understood.

To summarize:

THE TEN COOL THINGS OF PLAYING THIS GAME

01. We are smaller than anything, which means we jump on cars, slide on the hypotenuse of stairs, and ride on luggages.

02. Sometimes we run to compete with an RC, the Formula-One of toys.

03. Hey, and we gotta climb the vents, or even infiltrate into a plane...through its wheel.

04. We destroy silly or broken toys - an action you wish to do but you can't; unless you're a fellow toy.

05. Awesome upgrades.

06. And we sneak in the racks of a toy store. And drive in the trolleys.

07. ZURG!

08. Awesome locations.

09. SLIME!

10. Nice polygons for the year.

Most of the reasons don't really make sense, and most are repetitive. But hey, who cares.

Sometimes it's frustrating, but most of it is fun. Though I reckon the moment where I have to jump over the crates that were floating in a rain puddle. I got drowned so many times, and thus I lost so much lives. But that's the consequence of being a toy who mischievously play in puddles. Size DOES matter.

I'm now planning to write more poems.

I'll Be Looking for You

I have been ill recently. Some of my friends guessed this was because I had been thinking of something too hard.

Or someone.

True, their words are. A meeting in eye, a hand shake can mean a lot for one person. These are able to awake a strong feeling, deep in one's mind, and unwittingly is a strong affection toward the person's psyche, giving a strong pressure.

I was looking for a place to sit, one day, before I found an empty space. I took the seat, and at first, I realized not who was sitting next to me. I didn't even care. I started to look around, my mind flew up high.

Just before I realized her, sitting next to me. My vision blurred, I didn't see clearly. Still, I did not recognize who she was.

After around one minute, my vision started to form, and sitting next to me was a girl, I did not recognize, still. I didn't even know. But a sensation struck inside me, giving a tremble deep inside my heart. I finally recognized her as no one I've ever known, but an angelic form, of a girl I've been wishing of.

As long as I was sitting there, I peeked over her, with the hope she peeked me back and didn't recognize me peeking her; at the same time. At one moment, we stared at each other, and she gave me a smile.

I was stunned.

My biggest regret was missing a chance to ask 'What's your name?'. But regret is regret; it is irreversible. But until now, I'm still thinking of her. Anytime. Anywhere. Such slight meeting makes it rather difficult for me to keep my memories of her face, but I know the guide of feeling will tell m that it is her if I met her once again. Just if.

My biggest hoping:

Dear girl in pink, 

I do not even know you. I may not remember you, but the fact is that I'm thinking of you. And I know I'll know you when I see you again - if I have such chance. I hope you'd also like to see me. Or either, what I will do is:

Speciality and Certainty

It's official now: I'm an introvert.

I got the result of this, my 'speciality test' several days prior. It is quite stunning how the result can be absolutely precise, but when it strays, it strays too far.

Suitable Jobs

Manager, office manager, logistics, and supply manager

Accountant

Inspector, supervisor

Civil technician, flight engineer

Police officer, detective, military officer

Construction & building inspector

Jobs related to prodution concerns

I'm stunned to see how the word 'inspector' decorates most of this part. Since it is definitely related to the word 'inspection', the testers absolutely don't have any idea how careless I am. Even sometimes I'll let something that clearly in my sight out of its way, whether it's important or not. Flight engineer is another surprising element, since it's really ironic reckoning that I am afraid of heights. But I'm quite happy seeing detective in my list, so my experience reading Sherlock Holmes won't be a waste.

Mathematic Skills

This is very, really, perfectly, absolutely stunning. You gotta check the following passage:

Your Mathematic skills are above average. You are able to solve any equations, analyze numbers and data in such great skill and considered to be above the average.

Dear testers, you all have to take a look on my report card, in which Mathematic is the only subject that has the scores colored red in a row. In the range of A to D, my Mathematic score will definitely be F.

Personalities

This one's quite precise.

You really like to exile yourself, keeping all your minds inside your own self; especially when you're in a great trouble. It can be said that you're an introvert. When you're all alone, usually you'll be able to recall any memories about any person or happening specifically, also with precise details. And under your own consciousness, you have a great skill in art, and always try to enjoy the beautiful of art. You are also a realistic, logical, analytic, and objective person. You really like to do things in order, in the precise time that had been set before.The last, you are known as a responsible man - this is your natural talent.

And many more. It is just weird reckoning how they can write down all my personalities I have known precisely, through crosses and circles. Maybe the certificate's all true.

Talking about introversion always reminds me of my true nature as an introvert. I don't know, but what the result said that I prefer to be all alone and my mind works perfectly when I'm alone is true.

I recalled my mind when we were on a trip to a beach. I was still a little kid at that time. The beach was beautiful, and it was empty. My family went swimming, but instead I wandered around the beach on my own, collecting seashells, drawing on the surface of the sand, or even sat on the sand, tried to build a sandcastle just to see the waves brought it down - and then rebuilt it again. The circle was about to complete.

What I mean is, have I been an introvert even since I was a kid - without realizing it? There has never been such idea, until I found out this recently. And I suppose it is now official.

I Have No Idea

I have no idea what to write; but instead I want to write. Ergo, now this words have born.


Above are the simple examples of two contradictive things in a single mind. And it is quite strange reckoning that there are many things that really contradict one another in one's mind. Like Pizzas will never match with Chinese Noodle if they were eaten together.


What I'm talking about is that there are too many things in this world that contradict with each other. And ironically, two things that contradict can flip one person's coin from face to tail, and push the person to a great effort to flip the coin back.


Like abilites, wishes, with capabilities, competence, or goods. If these things I mentioned contradict and related to a person's aim, that will definitely ruin his or her main purpose, his or her aim, his or her dream.


I'm talking about this not just because that happen to me, but it is more to based on facts that I have seen, which are so much. The pious, we may say this as a trial. And as I said before, those things definitely will push someone to flip the coin back - pushing them into a great life struggle to find a solution toward it.


And if things like these happen, these all maybe fate's hands playing. You may ask 'Yikes, what shall I do?' or 'What's the resolve?'. Fate is always unpredictable - alas, to the resolve all I can say is:

Our Dearest Encyclopedia and Shakespeare

I'm trying to be a bit serious right now.


But before, talking about seriousness, I hardly able to be. I'm just this wisecracking, fun-loving, cheerful in an idiotic way kid. And beside, why should we be serious when we should not be serious?


So I have encountered a failure; yet again.


My memory suddenly recalled a moment when I was in a sick. It was measles. Or chicken pox. I doubt my memory, but I think it was measles.


Just assume it was measles. The story goes like this: My brother got the illness first. I did not know what, but Mum desperately tried to separate me from this 3 years-older-than-me boy. What I know is that two or three days later, I got the same illness.


What's good from being ill together is that we should worry not to be contracted by others. In fact, we spent a week playing together, sitting on the couch, holding the gamepad, staring at the television. In the whole one week. Mum took care of us (You should know that a person that had ever got measles cannot get another one; you should have known), and in around a week, both of us got free from the illness.


Quoting from our dearest Encyclopedia:


"Measles (sometimes known as English Measles) is spread through respiration (contact with fluids from an infected person's nose and mouth, either directly or through aerosol transmission), and is highly contagious—90% of people without immunity sharing a house with an infected person will catch it. The infection has an average incubation period of 14 days (range 6–19 days) and infectivity lasts from 2–4 days prior, until 2–5 days following the onset of the rash (i.e. 4–9 days infectivity in total)."


So, my deduction is, since we lived in one same house, and the measles spread through air, it was likely for me to be contradicted.


And we presume that talk above is a serious thing (Isn't it?). So back to what I was talking before, my reason to not being so serious is that; we shall enjoy live. Serious means we think hardly; means we extort our deepest mind. Being fun means we enjoy this life; even if it is to cover a sadness within.


As what people quoted:

"Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once."

- Lillian Dickson

"The healthiest response to life is joy."

- Deepak Chopra

"Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower."

- Hans Christian Andersen

And the flower should be what we call as 'fun', and since life is too precious to waste, let us spend it with joy. 

And our dearest Shakespeare said:

"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy."

I swear I don't know who Horatio is. I don't even read Hamlet. But I'd rather look for unique things on this world rather than send out some phylosophical sentences.

Way to go, Shakespeare.