I'll Be Looking for You

I have been ill recently. Some of my friends guessed this was because I had been thinking of something too hard.

Or someone.

True, their words are. A meeting in eye, a hand shake can mean a lot for one person. These are able to awake a strong feeling, deep in one's mind, and unwittingly is a strong affection toward the person's psyche, giving a strong pressure.

I was looking for a place to sit, one day, before I found an empty space. I took the seat, and at first, I realized not who was sitting next to me. I didn't even care. I started to look around, my mind flew up high.

Just before I realized her, sitting next to me. My vision blurred, I didn't see clearly. Still, I did not recognize who she was.

After around one minute, my vision started to form, and sitting next to me was a girl, I did not recognize, still. I didn't even know. But a sensation struck inside me, giving a tremble deep inside my heart. I finally recognized her as no one I've ever known, but an angelic form, of a girl I've been wishing of.

As long as I was sitting there, I peeked over her, with the hope she peeked me back and didn't recognize me peeking her; at the same time. At one moment, we stared at each other, and she gave me a smile.

I was stunned.

My biggest regret was missing a chance to ask 'What's your name?'. But regret is regret; it is irreversible. But until now, I'm still thinking of her. Anytime. Anywhere. Such slight meeting makes it rather difficult for me to keep my memories of her face, but I know the guide of feeling will tell m that it is her if I met her once again. Just if.

My biggest hoping:

Dear girl in pink, 

I do not even know you. I may not remember you, but the fact is that I'm thinking of you. And I know I'll know you when I see you again - if I have such chance. I hope you'd also like to see me. Or either, what I will do is:

Speciality and Certainty

It's official now: I'm an introvert.

I got the result of this, my 'speciality test' several days prior. It is quite stunning how the result can be absolutely precise, but when it strays, it strays too far.

Suitable Jobs

Manager, office manager, logistics, and supply manager

Accountant

Inspector, supervisor

Civil technician, flight engineer

Police officer, detective, military officer

Construction & building inspector

Jobs related to prodution concerns

I'm stunned to see how the word 'inspector' decorates most of this part. Since it is definitely related to the word 'inspection', the testers absolutely don't have any idea how careless I am. Even sometimes I'll let something that clearly in my sight out of its way, whether it's important or not. Flight engineer is another surprising element, since it's really ironic reckoning that I am afraid of heights. But I'm quite happy seeing detective in my list, so my experience reading Sherlock Holmes won't be a waste.

Mathematic Skills

This is very, really, perfectly, absolutely stunning. You gotta check the following passage:

Your Mathematic skills are above average. You are able to solve any equations, analyze numbers and data in such great skill and considered to be above the average.

Dear testers, you all have to take a look on my report card, in which Mathematic is the only subject that has the scores colored red in a row. In the range of A to D, my Mathematic score will definitely be F.

Personalities

This one's quite precise.

You really like to exile yourself, keeping all your minds inside your own self; especially when you're in a great trouble. It can be said that you're an introvert. When you're all alone, usually you'll be able to recall any memories about any person or happening specifically, also with precise details. And under your own consciousness, you have a great skill in art, and always try to enjoy the beautiful of art. You are also a realistic, logical, analytic, and objective person. You really like to do things in order, in the precise time that had been set before.The last, you are known as a responsible man - this is your natural talent.

And many more. It is just weird reckoning how they can write down all my personalities I have known precisely, through crosses and circles. Maybe the certificate's all true.

Talking about introversion always reminds me of my true nature as an introvert. I don't know, but what the result said that I prefer to be all alone and my mind works perfectly when I'm alone is true.

I recalled my mind when we were on a trip to a beach. I was still a little kid at that time. The beach was beautiful, and it was empty. My family went swimming, but instead I wandered around the beach on my own, collecting seashells, drawing on the surface of the sand, or even sat on the sand, tried to build a sandcastle just to see the waves brought it down - and then rebuilt it again. The circle was about to complete.

What I mean is, have I been an introvert even since I was a kid - without realizing it? There has never been such idea, until I found out this recently. And I suppose it is now official.

I Have No Idea

I have no idea what to write; but instead I want to write. Ergo, now this words have born.


Above are the simple examples of two contradictive things in a single mind. And it is quite strange reckoning that there are many things that really contradict one another in one's mind. Like Pizzas will never match with Chinese Noodle if they were eaten together.


What I'm talking about is that there are too many things in this world that contradict with each other. And ironically, two things that contradict can flip one person's coin from face to tail, and push the person to a great effort to flip the coin back.


Like abilites, wishes, with capabilities, competence, or goods. If these things I mentioned contradict and related to a person's aim, that will definitely ruin his or her main purpose, his or her aim, his or her dream.


I'm talking about this not just because that happen to me, but it is more to based on facts that I have seen, which are so much. The pious, we may say this as a trial. And as I said before, those things definitely will push someone to flip the coin back - pushing them into a great life struggle to find a solution toward it.


And if things like these happen, these all maybe fate's hands playing. You may ask 'Yikes, what shall I do?' or 'What's the resolve?'. Fate is always unpredictable - alas, to the resolve all I can say is:

Our Dearest Encyclopedia and Shakespeare

I'm trying to be a bit serious right now.


But before, talking about seriousness, I hardly able to be. I'm just this wisecracking, fun-loving, cheerful in an idiotic way kid. And beside, why should we be serious when we should not be serious?


So I have encountered a failure; yet again.


My memory suddenly recalled a moment when I was in a sick. It was measles. Or chicken pox. I doubt my memory, but I think it was measles.


Just assume it was measles. The story goes like this: My brother got the illness first. I did not know what, but Mum desperately tried to separate me from this 3 years-older-than-me boy. What I know is that two or three days later, I got the same illness.


What's good from being ill together is that we should worry not to be contracted by others. In fact, we spent a week playing together, sitting on the couch, holding the gamepad, staring at the television. In the whole one week. Mum took care of us (You should know that a person that had ever got measles cannot get another one; you should have known), and in around a week, both of us got free from the illness.


Quoting from our dearest Encyclopedia:


"Measles (sometimes known as English Measles) is spread through respiration (contact with fluids from an infected person's nose and mouth, either directly or through aerosol transmission), and is highly contagious—90% of people without immunity sharing a house with an infected person will catch it. The infection has an average incubation period of 14 days (range 6–19 days) and infectivity lasts from 2–4 days prior, until 2–5 days following the onset of the rash (i.e. 4–9 days infectivity in total)."


So, my deduction is, since we lived in one same house, and the measles spread through air, it was likely for me to be contradicted.


And we presume that talk above is a serious thing (Isn't it?). So back to what I was talking before, my reason to not being so serious is that; we shall enjoy live. Serious means we think hardly; means we extort our deepest mind. Being fun means we enjoy this life; even if it is to cover a sadness within.


As what people quoted:

"Life is like a coin. You can spend it any way you wish, but you only spend it once."

- Lillian Dickson

"The healthiest response to life is joy."

- Deepak Chopra

"Just living is not enough. One must have sunshine, freedom, and a little flower."

- Hans Christian Andersen

And the flower should be what we call as 'fun', and since life is too precious to waste, let us spend it with joy. 

And our dearest Shakespeare said:

"There are more things in heaven and earth, Horatio, than are dreamt of in your philosophy."

I swear I don't know who Horatio is. I don't even read Hamlet. But I'd rather look for unique things on this world rather than send out some phylosophical sentences.

Way to go, Shakespeare.

Made Out of Gravels and Flour

If anyone says that the world is small, and this virtual world makes it even smaller; true, it is. And even two strangers in quite distant places that know each other not, can meet and only with the same interest, eventually become friends so easily. Happy birthday to a friend I met in this small world, Kristie Azaziah.


Several days ago, I went for sightseeing and found a true eye candy:

I am quite keen and really like in this brick-building thing, and things got better when I saw these, put around the big city neatly:

They built these, futuristic buildings, which gave me a question why they used brown colored bricks. With all my sense of art, future buildings are associated and really fit in white and blue, but well, who cares. They are awesome.

And I got a package from my Auntie, which revealed to be some things that are really sweet. Among them is the sweetest of them all:

Being a Cookie Monster for 15 years, making this thing a really pleasant treat for me. Like your favorite music, the flour, nuts, choco chips, milk composed nicely in harmony inside this one piece of the cookie. Inevitably the best taste I've ever had.

And then, I'm unstoppable.

You All Know

Sometimes it's hard to achieve something we really want. Sometimes it's really hard. And sometimes, what we really want to do, has an internal affair with our talents, interests, and hobby, which means sometimes it's really hard to channel our own talent or interest. And that's what's happening to me.

Maybe you've all known that I really want to make some music. It's not really my talent, but it fully takes my interest on to it. And the result may be satisfying.

I said maybe. Don't get me wrong or assume me as a proud kid.

And as you all know, I really like doing mischievous things around. Or at least, giving comments directly to unusual things. You see, even a Dark Lord of Sith needs some relaxing moment or he was in the mood to pose:

I don't have any idea what were in the sculptors mind when they made this statue; sculpting a serious threat to a galaxy far, far, away, with a 'fisherman' pose as I dubbed it.

And as you all know too, I really like tasting any kind of food. I got a quite big piece of a traditional old ladies' food, the creamy Klappertaart.

Yum:

Raisins, cherries, and half-eaten. The tart was a true tongue candy. And another thing, you all know that I really like digging old things in around my house, and look at what I found:

(From left to right) My older Brother, The 4 years old me giving my best high five, Pops, and Mum. And do not forget my family's old couch where we sat, and the window and the door on the very far right, which still stand where they were until now. I still really remember that white dinosaurs tee and that light brown jumpsuit I wore in my 4th birthday, where Mum and Brother gave me 5 Power Rangers action figures right after I woke up. It was a great memory.

To put it all mildly:

You all know about me pretty much.